Revelation: Order from chaos

I absolutely thrive on creating order out of chaos.

I just had this revelation about myself on the way home from the roller derby scrimmage, at which I was serving as penalty tracker. When I think about, I'm overwhelmed by all the aspects of my life to which this statement applies.

The things I am relatively good at include statistics, database management and creation, programming, and apparently being a non-skating official (NSO) for roller derby. At home, disorder drives me crazy, so I am always thinking of how to organize things or put them in some sort of order. Even when I do something that initially creates a mess, I only find peace when the project is done and everything is back in order.

This might seem trivial, but it's kind of amazing to realize that what brings me peace is so simple and yet sometimes so hard to achieve. I also recognize that some people are best at creating that chaos that I feel a need to find order in. Now I wonder if I actually need those people to feel like I'm actually achieving something by organizing the chaos they produce.

In any case, this is a big eye opener for me. In fact, this might even manage to create some order in my often chaotic mind.